Today was one of those days where I was just thinking that nothing was going to go right. The nurse was in the wrong place at the wrong time doing the wrong thing, I couldn't find the right nurse and the doctor and patients were all giving me a hard time. I had a patient come up the steps and start complaining about how long he had been waiting and how the nurse didn't know what she was doing and I just got fed up. He came into my room and we began to talk. He had to do patient education for starting ARVs and all of a sudden we had been talking for half and hour and he made me remember that all the choas was worth the reward. We had such a great conversation and he really showed me how I shouldn't lose hope. There is always a story to be hear and something to learn.
The hospital is in transition right now and it is quite frustrating because absolutely nothing is organized. I've been frustrated a lot this week because everything is in chaos and no one really has good communcation. One staff is yelling at the next and everyone is just at the end of their rope. I lost my cool a few times this week and had to really hold myself back from being a completely mean person. It made me really put myself into check and remember how important it is to be calm in the midst of choas. Everyone is human but it is in a time like this where the hospital and our patients need us to let go of our own selfishness and make the best out of the things we have. I really learned this lesson from my co-worker Terese who basically shoved it down my throat everytime I was begin selfish and crabby. I'm thankful that her attitude makes me see where I need to improve in my own life. She always makes my day better even when she is yelling at me. We all need friends in our lives like that - not the ones who are going to sugar coat things but the ones that are going to show us the bad so we can get rid of it!
I feel like Guyana has been EXTRA hot this week and it makes me long even more for Minnesota weather. I know I am going to complain when I get home but I just feel like I can't take the heat anymore. I love when I get to walk into a building that has AC.
I want to congradulate my best friend Erica Riestenberg for her engagement!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can't believe that one of my best friends from back home has gotten engaged and it makes me feel soo grown up! Erica has always been here for me while i've been in Guyana and I don't know what I would do without her. It's friends like her that have made me be able to stay sane! :)
I found a picture this week that I felt has really described my life lately. I may not know what I am doing or exactly who I am but it's okay. Sometimes it's the bad and hard things in life that have made me the person I am. I didn't know what I was going to do after graduation until right before graduation. God will always provide for me but I need to remember that. I need to help myself so that God will help me and I need to be faithful. Sometimes the roads that look the darkest really hold the most light. So for all of those who keep asking what i'm doing next, know that I don't know but if anything this experience has taught me it's alright, eventually it will all work out. One day at a time.
Love and prayer everyone,
Ashley Ann
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